Work

Well, on Monday I go back to work. Before I had Misael I decided to only take 10 weeks off just so I could save my PTO.  I am blessed that in my current job I get 272 hours of PTO each year front loaded in January.  I love this little perk.  But this week I am starting to have doubts.

I thought all this time, I am ready to go back. I am ready for my routine back. I am not going to cry. I have done this before with Ipolito.  Well, guess what?! I was wrong. All of a sudden on Monday I was starting to feel apprehensive. What am I going to do without my little guy all of the time?! Will he eat for others? Will he sleep well? Will I ever get sleep? How in the world am I going to get everyone ready and out the door in time?

At least I don't have to be at work at a specific time. But I have come to realize that I need at least an hour just to get myself ready. This just includes showering and pumping.  Then I need another 30-45 minutes to get the baby fed and dressed. This doesn't include spit ups or poops everywhere.  I also need about 10-15 minutes to get Ipolito ready as well. Then I have to drop the boys off at my mom's or the sitters.  Ughhh...I would like to be at work by 0630 so that means I need to wake up at like 330 or 4!!! I am tired just thinking about all of this!! How in the world will all of this get done?! I know it will all work out and that is what I keep telling myself.

Here is our schedule for the weeks to come:

Monday & Tuesday- Papi takes care of Misael & takes Ipo to sitter
Wednesday- Mama takes the boys to Grandma's house
Thursday - Mama takes the boys to Shari's house
Friday - Mama is off and takes care of Misael and Ipo goes to the sitter.

Then every other Friday Ipo spends the night with Grandma so Papi can sleep the next day.

I hope everyone is ready for this crazy train this week.

Does he really love me?!

Does he really love me?!! Ipolito that is. Sometimes here lately I have been wondering.  He has not been wanting kisses or snuggle time with me as he always has in the past.  He is normally a very affectionate little boy.  Lately, not so much. He doesn't want me to kiss him. If I do he wipes it off. In fact he will lick his hand and THEN wipe it off. He is always talking about how he doesn't like girls either. It is always him and his Papi he says.

Jose says this is just a phase and that it is probably stemming from jealousy. Jealousy over the baby and all of the time I spend with him, hold him, etc.  Well...I hope that is it and it passes. FAST. I do not like it. I know it shouldn't but it hurts my feelings.  I wonder how can I be a better mom? How can I be nicer?

I know at times I am a little short with him especially when both boys are crying, it's late, time for bed, etc.  But I do love my Ipolito. I love him so much.  I told Jose he needs to teach Ipolito how to treat a lady, especially his mother and he has been trying.  He tells him we don't talk to Mama like that, Mama is our queen, etc.  I just hope this works and it passes. FAST.

My little ninja turtle....with my blue headband on