Getting uncomfortable!

Right now I am jamming to Michael Buble and I can't help but share my favorite lyrics:

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,
And you know that's what our love can do.

This song reminds me of two things. One, even though my life is crazy at times (somewhat difficult pregnancy with subchorionic hemorrhage, my heart problems, Baby's heart problems, gestational diabetes, school, work, and life in general) I can't help but be grateful for what I have been given and for what I am experiencing and about to experience. Jose and Baby Ismael are my everything. They make me want to sing and dance and strive to be a better person. Two, whatever comes our way, Jose and I will see it through b/c that is exactly what our love can do. I have been fortunate to meet the man of my dreams at an early age and together we have been through many trials and tribulations. Together we can achieve anything. He is my rock, my lover, and my best friend.

Okay...enough of the sap....we went to the doctor this Thursday and we had yet another sonogram! The baby is growing well. He is 2lbs 11 oz. The doctor also said that she could not see the VSDs. Now she also said that just because she cant see them doesn't mean that they are not there, but they either could have closed up or are so small that she cannot see them. Now she is no pediatric cardiologist so we still have to wait until after birth to really see what Baby's Ismael's heart is like. But hopefully they are closed!

I also asked my doctor about the birth because when I first met her she mentioned that she would be interested in doing a controlled birth for me. This is still the case. She said I will be induced at 39 weeks (if I make it that far). That means Baby Ismael will be here before Thanksgiving! That also means we have 10 weeks left! SCARRYY!! We are going to talk more about it at my appointment in three weeks. At that time I will have more blood work done and will start my every two week appointments! At times I am realizing that this journey is almost over and I have to admit it scares the hell out of me!

As for me I am getting used to the whole gestational diabetes diet and sticking myself. I am getting to the point to where sometimes I dont even feel the needle stick. I also am chosing more sensible snacks and eating more meat. There are days, Thursday in particular, where my sugar is all over the place. I feel so bad when I check it after I eat and it is high. It seems like Thursday it was like that after breakfast and lunch. I was really going to cry if it was high at dinner, but luckily it wasnt. I see the dietician on Tuesday morning so we will see what she says.

I am getting very uncomfortable. It is hard to sit like a normal person. All I want to do is recline because it is easier to breathe. This is especially difficult at meal times. I often either lean back to eat and get my food all over me or I put my plate half on the table and half on my belly. Either way about 25% gets on me. I am also having trouble sleeping comfortably. It is so hard changing positions and getting comfortable again, plus I have to have a pillow under my belly now b/c if not it feels like my belly is just hanging there!

On the happy side I can feel Baby Ismael moving so much. He is an active little man! It is so amazing to feel him move around. I can feel him at times near my groin and up by my ribs and I think...man he is so big. I also see my belly move now from the outside. That is the coolest thing!

Well, I think this is all for now. I need to get back to my paper writing.

I am currently 29 weeks4 days!