Ipolito

So some have asked if I have forgotten about Ipolito or what happened to him since I seem to always post pictures of Misael. Seriously?! WTF?! Do people honestly think I "forgot" about him or that something happened to him?! It pisses me off so much! I want to say seriously?! I shake my head in amazement. Pure amazement and I keep my mouth closed. So far anyways.

So....

No, I haven't forgotten about him. No, nothing has happened to him. He is fine. He is alive. He is very much loved and NOT forgotten.

Misael is new to the world.

For the past 4+ years it has been all about Ipolito. Now it is all about both of them. Now I post pictures of the baby more because he is new, because I like to compare the two, and because I want to. I still take quite a bit of pictures of Ipolito. I still love him. He definitely keeps me on my toes.

He talks all of the time. He asks so many questions.

At first when Misael was born I felt very bad. I felt like I deserted him. I felt like a bad mother because at the time Misael was getting all of our time since he was in the hospital. I cried and cried and cried some more. I felt guilty. To date Ipolito was all I had. He was my world. I felt like I failed him by bringing Misael into the world. I felt like a horrible mother for not being there on Christmas with him. Yes he was surrounded by family. Yes he was able to open presents on Christmas. Yes we were able to share that through face time (thank you Apple). Yes he spent time with us on Christmas. Yes he probably won't remember any of this. This all passed (thanks pregnancy/postpartum hormones).

I guess that is why it pisses me off so much when someone says something like above. You see, my children are my world. Along with Jose, they are my everything! I used to think how on earth will I love them equally?! But I do. I love them so much.

I take pictures of them so often. BOTH of them. They each get my time. Yes, Misael gets a little more because he needs a little more right now. But there is special time carved out of my life for both of them.

So...yes Ipolito is still here. So is Misael. They are my life.